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Suffering Leads to Hope-Hope that Heals

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As night fell I couldn’t see where I was going, my phone was dying and my GPS kept leading me down the wrong roads. I remember reciting Psalm 23, as I drove.

Finally arriving at a little cabin in the woods, I walked into a room full of girls around my age and this one particular girl who Sarah (my friend leading the retreat) had spoken a lot about named Katherine Wolf.

As Katherine spoke about her near death experience, I sat still without taking a breath, it was intense, but she had this uncanny faith that made me wonder “how could she have so much faith when she has been through so much pain?”

I didn’t understand it, but it struck me deep, “there had to be more to this Jesus than I currently understood, He had to be more real than I had yet experienced.” Holding onto “Jesus” is one thing when life is going well, but then remaining in that after almost all has been lost was profound to me.

The word “hope” was not a word that informed my life, for me it was more like “hide and survive”. Hide from the pain and just try to make it through life.

But 6 years after that retreat, I sit here in LA privileged to work with Jay and Katherine Wolf and their ministry Hope Heals.

I never thought about the truth that Hope can actually heal you. It’s true and may look different than it does for Katherine, for me healing is more emotional than physical, it can also be mental or spiritual.

We all need healing in one way or another and the good news is, there is healing to be had.

Katherine and Jay’s story is an AMAZING book now. It is such a testimony of a God who does not leave us in the dark, even when all seems lost.

Katherine had her greatest moment of despair in brain rehab as she told God that everyone’s life would be better if she was gone, if she would have died, she said “Jay could marry a normal women and James could have a normal mommy,” but before that thought could fully land she was struck by a “dispatch from God” that went something like this…

Katherine, I am God you are not. There is a purpose in all of this. Just wait. You’ll see. There is no replacing you. Jay could never, ever marry a woman as amazing as you. James could never have a mommy like you. Think about what this will mean for his life. Mommy’s stroke will always be a part of his story. That is a gift to him. It will inform his life. Let him consider it pure joy as he grows. All of this will teach him in ways beyond anything you could say or do. 

Trust Me. I am working out EVERYTHING for your good. Don’t doubt this truth just because you are in the darkness now. What’s true in the light is true in the dark. I know you can’t fight this. That doesn’t matter. All you have to do is be still and let Me fight for you. I will complete the good work I began when I gave you new life. I will carry it on to completion. Believe that. My nature is to redeem and restore and strengthen. This terrible season will come to an end. You will suffer for a little while and then I will carry you out of this. 

You will see My goodness in the land of the living. Lean into this hope. Let it teach you how special you are.

Katherine has a bunch of favorite passages of scripture, but two that give me hope are…

Romans 8:28

28 And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.

Hebrews 6:19

This hope we have as an anchor of the soul, a hope both sure and steadfast and one which enters within the veil.

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Hey, Fear, My God is Near

Hey Fear!
Hey Fear, my God is near.
Have you guys heard that song, so good! I will put a link to it at the end of this article! 
 
Recently, a friend of mine sent me a message super excited about major break through people were getting at a prayer meeting at church. He was so pumped; because there is nothing more beautiful than watching people get free from lies and things that hold them captive.
 
He knew about all the sickness I had been having over the past month; it was one thing after another and with each “pain” a truckload of fear came barreling in behind it. I felt completely nuts for having a ‘DIFFERENT’ pain every other day; it was obnoxious.
 
I, then, started to get a little insight, that this was deeper than just a mysterious physical pain. I knew the root was spiritual, and the culprit was fear.
 
My friend’s next message to me said, “Lindsay, do you want to take care of that fear tonight?” 
 
Without a second thought, I said: “of course.”  
I then got a series of texts from him, saying:
1. Recognize -Recognize the fear (or whatever ‘it’ is)
2. Responsibility- take responsibility before God for your partnership with fear
3. Repent- Repent to the Father in the name of Jesus
4. Renounce- Renounce fear in the name of Jesus
5. Remove it!
6. Resist it- When it tries to come back 2 Cor 10:5- take every thought captive and submit it to the will of Christ
7. Rejoice- now that you are free, give God thanks and Praise 
8. Restore- restore someone else
 
Next text: “ask the Father to tell you what you need to repent of specifically concerning fear, could it be movies, men, past experiences any place where you’ve partnered with fear and allowed the enemy to establish his kingdom?”-
 
Next text:  “no condemnation just responsibility and you will receive forgiveness so quickly it will blow your mind.” 
Clear as day these words came to my mind “foundation, protection and security.”  
 
I repented. I quietly said, “OH Lord, forgive me for making my foundation in life fear instead of you and for seeing fear as my protector and security because that is you, I was wrong.”
 
The Bible is so clear:
 
1 Corinthians 3:11 NASB
For no man can lay a foundation other than the one which is laid, which is Jesus Christ.
 
Jesus is my foundation as a believer, and I had made fear my foundation by accident. Thankfully the Bible says “we can ask for wisdom from God, and He will give it to us without measure.” James 1:5
 
My friend then said maybe it was a guiding spirit to a false comforter, and it was like I won the lottery, that was it. 
 
I was putting fear in place of the Holy Spirit.
 
The Holy Spirit is our Helper; the Bible says in John 14:26, but I had been giving fear that place in my life. Fear was the one assisting me in every decision I made.
 
But not anymore!
 
I was free! I knew it. I woke up the next day with so much joy I had not known. 
 
In Psalm 51 David cries to God for repentance for the pattern of sin he engaged in following his transgressions with Bathsheba. He offers us a picture of what repentance should look like in our lives.
 
1.    David acknowledges his sin
2.    He asks for forgiveness
3.    He then asks God to renew him
4.    Finally, he asks God to help him to teach others 
 
Sounds familiar doesn’t it.
 
What is it that you need to ask God’s forgiveness of tonight? Ask the Lord in prayer what you need to repent of.
 
Go ahead: REPENT and BE CLEANSED. 
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Getting Back to Intimacy

Getting Back to Intimacy
I love God’s grace, because as we wonder off into the teachings and opinions of others and slightly stray from our intimacy with Jesus, Father God and Holy Spirit, He lightly warns us.
Do you hear the warning?
As I continue my battle with the sin of fear.
I write down scripture after scripture from the Bible on why I should not fear.
Fear including worry and anxious thoughts.
It’s all ROOTED in fear.
Like those “super healthy people” (as I like to refer to them), you know the ones that talk a lot about “getting to the root of the cause of the health issue.”
I am kind of like them, but a believer in healing the soul and that also entails getting to the root and digging it out (ps. this sometimes hurts) BUT man does it have AMAZING results on the other side.
Fear is the (root) cause of all of the following:
1. Insecurity
2. Inadequacy
3. Inferiority Complex
4. Timidity
5. Worry/Anxiety
6. Sensitivity
7. Fear of Authority
8. Terror
9. Trauma
10. Torment/Horror
11. Nightmares
12. Panic Attacks
13. Phobias
14. Nervousness
15. Abandonment
16. Procrastination
As I pray, journal and write, I cry out to the Lord “this fear, it has me trapped, I am stuck, I can’t get out.”
He kindly reminds me of 2 things!
1. The only thing Biblically you are allowed to fear is ME!
yikes: I know this–
2. Fear is a sin–
it is an addiction, no different than food, alcohol, drugs or porn.
Fear is a sin, and you are addicted to it, Lindsay.
It is not a disease Lindsay; it’s a sin and you, my little overcomer, can conquer it because of Jesus setting you free from the slavery of sin. (Romans 8:2). Treat fear like sin Lindsay. Treat it like an addiction because it is.
It’s not ok Lindsay, even though it feels valid, you are enslaved, and I have a better way for you. Freedom is available. I know you don’t know life without it, but I promise if you trust me I will show you the way out. But you can’t trust me if you don’t know me. I am your good Shepard walk with me Lindsay let me show you the way to greener pastures.
{My name is Lindsay, and I am addicted to FEAR}
Fear is comfortable for me; I can hide behind it.
Most of us have some addiction, be it people pleasing, work, ministry (or the typical ones I mentioned above)
But be careful to let ANYTHING take the place of your intimate, personal relationship with God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. The lie we are believing is that fear will protect us, but it is quite the opposite, fear will keep us from all God has for us, and the truth is GOD is the one who will protect us! Stay close to Him!
He warned me about it, and I think He wants me to remind you!

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